My Journey Saturday 21st April. Depression, men’s health. It’s ok not to be ok!

I felt empowered sending messages to wigan council and leigh journal about the hazardous conditions I mentioned in yesterday’s blog it is a good thing, not only to sort out the mess but for me also to feel useful rather than useless, to show I care even if my emotion does not fully show it.

In the afternoon myself and Barney decided to complete the list of mundane chores and also add to it, which is a positive moment to remember, I just decided whilst the weather was nice I would mow the lawns; something i have been putting off, I felt good after it and so did Barney enjoying the smell of the fresh cut grass then Barney had a snooze in the sun whilst I relaxed listening to the birds and the feeling of the light breeze around me, it was quite peaceful. I just sat and took it in. It was sort of enjoyable. Bit difficult to describe the proper emotion. But well worth the note on the blog.

So after all this today which was very busy and good for my mental state, I packed up ready for a weekend away in the caravan…. Julia arrived home at a reasonable time ready to go. Barney was geared up too. Car packed and I felt positive ready for a good relaxing weekend in the lakes with my closest loved ones, well oh no it was not meant to be. The M6 was shut a major accident and major traffic queues, I did not care for the queues I only thought of the poor people in the accident. We decided to turn back and come home and watch the rugby ready for our journey in the morning back to the lakes. I thought numerous times about the unfortunate people in the accident and so did Julia, I also though I am lucky I have the biggest support around me, many many people there for me to have a chat if I need it

People I have not seen for some years and I feel very blessed to have these people in my life.

So our journey to the lakes was around 11am and it started off with traffic again, not even on the motorway but we are persevering as it is a glorious day and we need the rays of the sun. Alot of people do not know but not the North West of England many people suffer with low vitamin D deficiancy becuase of the lack of the sun. Something I did not know about until the doctor did blood tests on me, why am o saying this you may think well a low vitamin D deficiancy can cause depression it can also cause fatigue, low mood, Anxiety, tiredness and a few others Google it you won’t believe the benefits you can get from a supplement of vitamin D. Something I will be sticking to for a long time in the hopes if part of my depression is caused by my low vitamin D deficiancy I can help with with the boost of vitamin supplements.

Well it is lovely weather at the caravan, Barney has been for a walk to the beer garden and now I’m sat on the decking with capital on enjoying the sunshine, yes I said enjoying. I always feel so relaxed here and it always makes me feel better to be in the countryside. Especially in Silverlade, Lake District. Probably my most favourite place on earth.

Think Barney is too warm on the decking he’s asleep on his bed. I don’t think he will ever understand how much he has helped me through this struggle. Dogs just give absolutely everything for nothing in return and I am so happy to have his as my dog…. sorry Julia our dog.

It’s barbecue time later and the neighbours are having a party, not bothered just hope they have a good time. Just as we will with my excellent culinary skills. I will enjoy the sleep tonight I almost always do as there is very minimal noise well apart from the owl. I hope everyone enjoys the sunshine in the North today it’s not often we get it.

I will just like to say before I finish today’s blog and I have said it a few times it’s ok not to be ok as long as you talk to someone. I can’t reiterate enough how important it is if you are suffering in silence.

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Author: Daniel Buck.

I am a genuine 32 year old man suffering with depression. I have a loving family around me and what was/is a wonderful life I just need to get back to the way I was. I am sharing my journey through depression in the hopes it helps other out there come to terms with their own issues and helps them understand it better and know they are not alone.

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